My First Love Experience

It was the first July of 2008, and I was still in high school at the 11^th grade. So, when the new student coming to my school I was orientated them. The initiation is always be my favorite event of the year, cause you know…it was the time where you can mistreat all the people you just met in 3 days or more. I was so exciting at the time, cause maybe I thought I will meet someone special alias the new student girl. The first day is going well, I did caught her several time but just a little eyes contact that’s happen between me and the-girl-that-I-have-crush-on. But that just it, I don’t get her phone number cause I’m too shy to ask her, in the other word I regret it. Damn! Oh man, she looks like freakin’ Korean girl band member that I like, but what crazy is she had a name that similar with that Korean girl band member. It only different one letter, crazy right? That’s why I get so exciting to meet her because I thought I might be have a chance to had a girlfriend that looks like a Korean girl band member.

Right, the second day is gotten a lot better than the first day. I found out that she was going to sent me a love letter but what funny is she also too shy to give it to me in a person. So, I concluded that we were really shy at that time. Cause you know, we’re still 15-years-old. I find out about that from my friend who in a class charge, so his job are checking out what’s going on in each class. And then he told me that the girl that I have crush on is also have a crush on me, oh man I was so happy and blush to hear that such a wonderful news from my friend. I feel like I was in the nine cloud on the sky at that time. Later that day I caught her more clearly in front of my eyes, OMG! She was so beautiful with her bob hair and her smile make me blushed immediately. I pretend to getting into a class to help my friend do the work, but actually I’m just checking her out for myself. She was smiling and also pretend to look around when I see her with a big smile on my face. I think that day couldn’t get any better.

In the third day, all the new student have to ask an autograph of all committee member including me. And this one also my favorite event that only happen annually, I mean when else you get a chance to asked an autograph by the people who chase you to do it. Make you feel like a celebrity for a day. Well, when she wants to ask my autograph I was hiding under the table, but then she found me. But, I ignore her to get my autograph and finally when everyone has already get my autograph but she haven’t, I ask her a phone number. But she made an excuse with ask me a question: “for what?”, and then I answer: “it’s for a communication.”

It was the good old days that I will always cherish and remember until now, although it ends badly and I’m not proud of it. But more on that later… after all, it was one of the greatest experience in my life. To be honest, I’m tearing up a little bit when I write this.

“Be happy, Y”

The funniest thing in my friendship circle: Friendship in my life

The theme of today is about a “Friendship” or in the word “The funniest things in my friendship circle,” but still a big word in that theme is a “friendship.” First, I will explain you guys about the friendship but in my point of view. After my past relationship has ending badly (lot of cry, lot of anger, I’m not proud of it), I concluded that a friendship is more important than a relationship, it’s not just more important but also more beautiful and more valuable. According to the cartoon television program “Avatar: The Legend of Aang,” friendship can be survive and last long more than a someone lifetime. The point is, “love” it is such a beautiful word, but that word can be change and destroy by cheated, jealously, anger and lie. But in a friendship, all of those thing it wouldn’t never happen right? But the word “friend” is different with the word “love,” cause friend will never leave you alone. But it also depend on what kind a friend that you have. I personally choose have a one real friends than a thousand fake friends.

Back to the main theme, now I have at least friend of man and friend of woman (I say it like this, cause I thought is kind a weird if I say it boyfriend and girlfriend). If I hanging out with my two friend of man, we’re always bashing on each other no matter is about where do you come from, about the hair, about the girls, or anything else that can be bashing on. Why we keep doing it? Although sometimes one of us might be get heart feeling because of it, but we underlined that all of those thing just fooling around or a joke to make us laugh at outside of the class and make us less stressful from studying in the class. And here’s the funny thing, they make fun of my hair cause my hair are very curly and it looks like a noodle. But I’m not just take it and accept it, I’m also make fun of my friend hair that also very curly and looks like a noodle but it more longer than mine. What made this experience funny is we are laughing on something we bashing on, I’m sorry but I think that’s crazy. Sometimes we could laugh until we exhausted and make us might be need to stop laughing for a minute. Honestly, I’m happy to have a friend like those guys. They can be funny and serious in a appropriate time.

If I would describe the importance of my friendship in my life, I couldn’t describe with the word. It’s just a beautiful thing  knowing that you have a friend who you can hang out with and laugh with, but I didn’t mean that my friend just only bashing on each other. In several time, they have been supported me and “got my back” if I’m in trouble, I know that they’re not tell me that they got my back, but I’m sure that they’re got my back and they’re my friend who will not “stab my back.” If there’s a chart to describe how important a friendship to me, it would be in a second position after my family. Families are important, and Friends are significant.

My Fuckin’ Depress Diary

Everyday, I feel like a failure. I feel like I never reach anything in my life. First, I letting down my father because I can’t get into a selection university. Why? Because I’m so fuckin’ stupid at math, I hate math! Second, I got a bad grade in a university that I enter now. I’ve got not one, not two, but three bad grade! Can you believe that?! I’m so fuckin’ stupid man! God, I hate myself!

And, I realize that I don’t have something I’m good at. I’m not good at sport, music, and I’m not even good at hanging out with a people around me, damn! I’m such a loser! A lame geek loser! Loser Loser Loser!!! I screwed everything up!, I messed up with anything!, Oh My God…!!! What I have to do in my fuckin’ life?!

I just wanna achieve something that I actually like and good at once, just once. I’m not asking to myself more than that. If you’re a dreamer, you have to be achiever! That’s what Aelke Mariska said, sort of. So, please Redy…don’t be lazy and stupid! You have to be smart and strong! Learn from your mistakes in the past to make it better in the future, forget about your personal depress or at least don’t combine with your own reality problem. You must believe that everything happen for a reason, if it’s not, it happen for what? Believe that God have all planned out for your own good, I will always believe that.

P. S: Don’t ever think that you’ll never reach anything in your life ever again! I hate when you think like that!

Indonesia sad and cry, again.

Last Monday, Indonesia face Malaysia at the Sea Games final football match in Gelora Bung Karno stadium. 10.000 supporters from all area in Indonesia or maybe more than that have waiting from early morning to get the ticket for watching a big match between this two archenemy country, Indonesia and Malaysia. Spirit of the winning that night has been fulfill our body and mind, all Indonesian people. We need so damn this winning after 20 years we never be the champion again since 1991, we thirsty and starving of the victorious. I honestly believe that this Monday, The Garuda Indonesia will taking down The Tiger Malaysia. We’re all believe that, right?

So, the match has begin at 7:30PM that night. First, our team lead the match through the heading goal by our center back, Gunawan D.C. Me and my brother was so happy and excited of that amazing goal, we were so glad that our team had made a goal in the minute sixth which is we’re leading at that time, but that’s not going for a while actually. It’s almost half-time break, Malaysian player made a goal by heading ball from the right side that kicked by their captain team, Baddroll. And what my brother and I upset about is our father, he was like supporting Malaysia than Indonesia. Bums me out! Damn! Anyway, it’s a half-time break. I’m not going anywhere, because I don’t want to miss this legendary match that we’re all will cherish and memories to the eternity.

So, the half time break is over. Now we’re started to gather around again to watch this match. But, as long the second half going on none of the two team made a second goal. So it’s in match ex, still no goal. And that’s bring us to the most dramatic event in a soccer, penalty session. When it’s begin, my heart pumped so fast which mean I’m a nervous breakdown. Gosh! I can’t imagine how’s the players feeling at that time, the pressure must be really hard remembered that all those player are representing their own country in this game. The first Indonesian player who kicks the ball in a penalty session is Titus Bonai, and he made a first score for Indonesia. But  sadly, our two other players didn’t made a goal. Same as Malaysian player, they’re also didn’t do the kicks very well. So, that’s bring us to the final kicks from the captain of Malaysia National Football Team, Baddroll. To our goalkeeper , Kurnia Mega. Baddroll’s penalty kick is quiet detected by Kurnia Mega, but his kick maybe a little bit too strong…so, Kurnia Mega failed to save the ball. Suddenly, the whole Indonesian supporters were silent for a moment…while watching Malaysia celebrate their victory in our own stadium, again, for the second time. After silent for a moment, they’re begin to cry cause they had to accept the bitter end of reality that happen again this year. It’s not just the supporters who cry and sad for this lose, I see some of the players also cry and sad for this lose. It’s so depressing and stressful for watch this lose from my television screen, I honestly deep down feel the same way as the supporters and the players…I’m sad and cry for this lose. It just like: “a little part of me just die.”

That’s all my review about the Sea Games final football match between Indonesia and Malaysia, and here the last thing that I want to say to all Indonesian people who watch that game…“This is just a victory that has been delayed for a moment, and our moment will come eventually someday…and when that moment has come, we will celebrate it together…!!!, Go Garuda Indonesia…!!!”

Thank you for reading my screwed up blog.

The Greatest Experience in my life so far: Watch Owl City concert live in Jakarta, October 28, 2011

If you ask me: “What’s your greatest experience, Redy?” I would answer: “It will be when I watch my first live concert experience, Owl City concert live in Jakarta, October 28, 2011”

Why is it so special for me? First of all, I’m a big fan of Owl City it usually called “Hoot Owls”. Since I watch a “Fireflies” music video, I immediately like his music colors that always make me smile, laugh, and relax every time I listened to his music. It’s like whenever I started to feeling down in my life, then I listened to Owl City’s song and suddenly I didn’t feel that way anymore. My problem in the real world is suddenly gone, I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because the music of Owl City is so bright and beautiful, and I’m so glad that finally I have meet with this kind a music that bring me joy and happiness in my life. Thank you for making such a beautiful music like this, Adam. Thank you so much, God bless you.

Now, back to the main theme: “The Greatest Experience in my life so far” The concert begin at 8:00 PM, after I waited since 6:00 PM because the venue is open at that time. I can’t believe I meet with so many Hoot Owls at that concert, I feel like I meet my Owl City’s family in there. So wonderful to see the people who’d like Owl City as same as I do. Make me feel alive, though. So, the concert was started with the live performance from a lovely Breanne Duren who singing “Daydream”, “No One Else”, “Gold Mine” with the sound of keyboards that she’s playing. Her voice is really unique and beautiful like the way she is, brilliant.

Miss Breanne Duren performing. OMG, she's so beautiful and brilliant! :)

And then after Miss Breanne performing, the concerts continue with all Owl City’s band come out to the stage. There is Laura at violin and keyboards, Hannah at bass and keyboards, Casey at drums, Daniel at guitars, keyboards, and percussions. Of course Breanne is included at keyboards and backing vocals. While Adam about to started the concert, he’s surprising all the audience in the venue with playing a drums in “The Real World” intro. So great and brilliant…!!! After all, he’s multi-instrumental anyway.

Adam Young and Owl City live bands are come out to the stage.

Laura, Casey, and Hannah. They're playing each of their instrument beautifully.

Adam playing a drums, so great and awesome...!!!

At the first or second song, I guess. He brought his camera to record the crowd inside the venue, for all I know he’s making a short movie about his tour in Asia entitled “Through The Lens of Adam Young”, and that short movie is have a two part. You guys have been watching it? If you haven’t, go take a search and look in youtube.com use a keyword “Through The Lens of Adam Young, part 1 and part 2.” It’s awesome…!!! Who knows he can also make a short movie, right? I think he’s not just multi-instrumental, but he’s also multi-talented man.

Adam Young take a picture and video from the stage.

As you can see in some of my photos, he’s playing 4 different guitars. 3 electric guitars, a white one, a sky blue one, and a wood color one, and 1 acoustic guitars. Those guitars are really cool, especially when Adam who’s playing it. He’s very attractive to all audience, he said hi to one audience who stand up close by the stage. He’s also said like this: “I have to called my mom right now, because the crowd is really amazing in here. I love you Jakarta, God bless you.” It’s so good and nice to hear that from him.

Adam playing an electric guitar, a white one.

Adam playing an electric guitar, a wood one.

Adam playing an electric guitar, a sky blue one.

Adam playing an acoustic guitar in "The Bird and the Worm" 

Several time, I caught him smiling. Like in this one...

...And this another one, his smile is so cute :D

After the concert is over, I go outside of the venue to get some fresh air. At first, I really want to get a picture with Adam Young or Breanne Duren. But sadly, I ask to the security in there is really hard they said if I want to get a picture with Adam or Breanne. I’d kind a regret it, but that’s okay cause seeing Owl City concert that night is more than enough for me to make the greatest experience in my life so far. But, at least I take a picture with the man who make all that concert is impossible. Yeah, I take a picture with Mr. Adrie Subono, the promotor of Java Musikindo. Thank you so much for bringing Owl City to Indonesia, Mr. Adrie Subono. I really appreciate it, bringing him again next year yeah mister….

Me and Mr. Adrie Subono at the outside of the venue, after the concert is over.

Well, that’s all my first live concert experience story. I feel so glad and blessed to get an opportunity to watch a concert of my favorite musician of all time, Owl City. This experience I will cherish and remembering it for the rest of my life, I promise. And last but not least, I won’t forget to say thanks for my beloved uncle who took and accompany me to the concert venue, thank you so much Uncle Doni Permadi Argadikusuma. Also thanks to my father and mother for make all that greatest experience happen, thank you so much guys…I love you.

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Mimpi dan Harapan Si Ayam Jantan Indo

Pada suatu hari, hidup seekor ayam jantan bernama Jack. Dia berasal dari kampung Ciayam, bapaknya adalah keturunan ayam jantan kampung dan ibunya adalah keturunan ayam betina negri. Hal itu membuat Jack menjadi ayam jantan indo yang mempunyai badan besar seperti ayam jantan kampung pada biasanya dan bulu berwarna putih polos seperti ayam betina negri pada biasanya. Hal itu juga membuatnya sering diejek dan dicemooh oleh teman-temannya. Tetapi itu tidak membuatnya berkecil hati, karena ia tetap bisa melakukan hal-hal yang biasa dilakukan ayam jantan seperti berkokok dengan suara yang nyaring dipagi hari, berkelahi dengan sesama jenisnya dan hal-hal yang biasa dilakukan ayam jantan lainnya.

Di suatu waktu, ketika ia sedang melihat ke langit luas dan ia tiba-tiba dengan tidak sengaja melihat seekor burung elang yang sedang terbang tinggi dengan sayap yang membentang ke kanan dan ke kiri. Pada saat itulah ia mempunyai mimpi dan harapan ingin bisa terbang di langit luas dengan sayap yang membentang ke kanan dan ke kiri. Lalu ia memberitahukan tentang mimpi dan harapannya itu kepada keluarga dan teman-temannya. Kemudian setelah ia memberitahukan tentang mimpi dan harapan tersebut, seluruh keluarga dan teman-temannya mengejek dan mencemooh tentang mimpi dan harapannya itu. Dia dianggap gila dan sudah tidak punya akal sehat lagi oleh teman-temannya dan dianggap mengkhianati bangsa ayam oleh seluruh keluarganya. Singkat cerita, ia diusir dari kampung tersebut oleh kepala suku ayam yang tak lain adalah ayahnya sendiri.

Karena telah diusir dari kampungnya sendiri, ia memutuskan untuk mengembara seorang diri dan melakukan perjalanan mencari jati diri. Dalam perjalanan inilah sesungguhnya petualangan yang sebenarnya seekor ayam jantan indo bernama Jack dimulai. Ketika ia sedang berjalan-jalan di tengah hutan yang asing dan sunyi, tiba-tiba suara mengeluh kesakitan terdengar dari jarak yang tidak terlalu jauh dengan posisi dimana ia mendengar suara tersebut. Lalu ia mulai mencari-cari dimana suara itu berasal dan tak lama kemudian ia menemukan sebuah gua besar yang ia yakini sebagai asal dari suara kesakitan tersebut. Kemudian di gua besar yang lembab itu dia menemukan seekor burung elang yang sayapnya terlihat tertembak dan berlumuran darah.

Dengan cepat, ia mengobati sayap si burung elang yang terluka parah itu. Dia menanyakan apa yang terjadi kepada burung elang yang malang tersebut sehingga bisa terluka sedemikian parahnya. Kemudian si burung elang yang bernama Egil itu menceritakan semuanya kepada Jack bagaimana ia bisa tertembak dan terluka. Jack yang mendengar cerita Egil sampai selesai membuatnya sedikit takut akan mengejar mimpi dan harapannya yang menyebabkan ia diusir dari kampungnya itu. Kemudian Jack juga menceritakan mimpi dan harapan betapa inginnya ia bisa terbang di langit luas seperti yang Egil biasa lakukan sebagai burung elang.

 Mendengar cerita Jack yang sangat ambisius tentang mimpi dan harapannya itu membuat Egil sedikit terharu. Kemudian ia berkata sebagai balas budinya karena sudah mengobati sayapnya yang terluka, dia berjanji akan mengajari Jack bagaimana untuk bisa terbang di langit luas!. Betapa senangnya Jack saat Egil berkata akan mengajarinya bagaimana untuk bisa terbang. Saking senangnya, ia sangat bersemangat sekali karena tahu akan ada seekor burung elang yang mewujudkan mimpi dan harapannya itu. Kemudian Egil mengajak Jack untuk ke kampungnya yaitu kampung Cielang yang berada tak jauh dari gua besar dimana ia tadi terluka dan diobati oleh Jack. Disana Jack melihat banyak sekali burung elang yang besar dan gagah perkasa mempunyai sayap yang lebar ke kanan dan ke kiri. Dia disambut seperti layaknya pahlawan karena telah mengobati Egil yang tak lain adalah kepala suku elang di kampung tersebut. Singkat cerita, ia sangat diterima di kampung itu.

Tiga tahun telah berlalu, Jack telah menjadi apa yang selama ini ia impikan dan harapkan. Jack bisa terbang di ketinggian dan kejauhan yang luar biasa untuk seekor ayam. Badannya yang dulu hanya sebesar seekor ayam jantan biasa, sekarang menjadi sebesar rata-rata seekor burung elang jantan disana. Perubahan serupa juga terjadi pada sayap dan kakinya. Mungkin itu semua disebabkan karena selama tiga tahun penuh ia hidup dengan cara hidup seekor burung elang.

Kini ia sangat senang sekali karena impian dan harapan yang sudah lama ia inginkan telah terwujud, ia merasa dirinya telah berhasil membuktikan bahwa mimpi dan harapan dapat terwujud apabila kita percaya, berusaha dan berusaha untuk menggapaimya. Tapi, semua keberhasilan itu tidak ia dapatkan dengan mudah dan cepat. Berkali-kali ia terjatuh dari pohon dengan ketinggian yang luar biasa dan membuat fisiknya sering kali terluka parah. Memang sakitnya sangat luar biasa, tapi setimpal dengan hasilnya juga yang sangat luar biasa. Jack sangat berterima kasih sekali kepada Egil yang telah membantunya untuk mewujudkan mimpi dan juga harapannya itu. Tapi Egil juga sangat berterima kasih sekali kepada Jack karena telah mengobati luka sayapnya waktu di gua besar. Kalau tidak ada Jack yang menolong Egil waktu itu, mungkin Egil akan mati membusuk di gua besar itu dan tidak akan bisa membantu Jack mewujudkan mimpi dan harapannya.

Tak lama kemudian Jack meninggalkan kampung Cielang, kampung yang bukan berpenghuni hewan sejenis dengannya tapi telah membantunya untuk menjadi seekor ayam jantan indo yang bisa terbang di langit luas dengan sayap yang membentang ke kanan dan ke kiri. Kini ia terus mengembara melintasi daratan dan lautan, terus melakukan perjalanan mencari jati diri dari satu tempat ke tempat lain dan menjalani hidup dalam mimpi dan harapan sebagai seekor ayam jantan indo yang bisa terbang!