My Fuckin’ Depress Diary

Everyday, I feel like a failure. I feel like I never reach anything in my life. First, I letting down my father because I can’t get into a selection university. Why? Because I’m so fuckin’ stupid at math, I hate math! Second, I got a bad grade in a university that I enter now. I’ve got not one, not two, but three bad grade! Can you believe that?! I’m so fuckin’ stupid man! God, I hate myself!

And, I realize that I don’t have something I’m good at. I’m not good at sport, music, and I’m not even good at hanging out with a people around me, damn! I’m such a loser! A lame geek loser! Loser Loser Loser!!! I screwed everything up!, I messed up with anything!, Oh My God…!!! What I have to do in my fuckin’ life?!

I just wanna achieve something that I actually like and good at once, just once. I’m not asking to myself more than that. If you’re a dreamer, you have to be achiever! That’s what Aelke Mariska said, sort of. So, please Redy…don’t be lazy and stupid! You have to be smart and strong! Learn from your mistakes in the past to make it better in the future, forget about your personal depress or at least don’t combine with your own reality problem. You must believe that everything happen for a reason, if it’s not, it happen for what? Believe that God have all planned out for your own good, I will always believe that.

P. S: Don’t ever think that you’ll never reach anything in your life ever again! I hate when you think like that!