The Crush Continue

Hey, a view days ago I have been told you that I’m in crush with someone right? Well this thing is continue. As you know, recently I can’t think about another girl beside my crush even though I can I feel guilty and stop thinking about another girl and thinking about my crush again. Is it weird? I know it’s weird. And, I feel sad if I didn’t see her in one day…it just she’s all I want to see all day long, really. I’m crazy like that, but the most weird thing that happen to me about my crush is…I keep seeing her photos every time I hold my phone, I’m thinking to set her photo to be my wallpaper and screensaver but I’m afraid other people when they lend my phone they will see it, or the worst…when my crush lend my phone, and she’s seeing her photo to be my wallpaper and screensaver of phone…I probably will kill myself at that moment, figuratively.

But in the other hand, I get excited and happy about some of little thing. Example, when even she’s reply or retweet of my mention to her in twitter or maybe when I thought she’s talking about secretly in her twitter account, or even when she’s smiling at me when she sees me that could be a joyful for me…just saying. But I started to thinking, is it wrong if I like this girl? Is it all of this was a mistake? What if all of this is just a big mistake? I mean I can’t imagine if all of this is a big mistake, honestly I can’t handle it. I can’t handle the feeling of the mistakes in love, whether is just a crush…I just can’t handle it.

Everyday I pray to the God, so he will show me that if she’s really my soulmate, just keep her near from me. But, if she’s not my soulmate, just keep her far from me. But I still believe that she could be my soulmate, she could be “the one” for me. You may lose the debate competition, but just don’t lose a belief…Redy. I’m sure as long I can think about her all day and night, I’m sure I’m still in crush with her.

To be continued…