Last night I dreamed about her, again. But this time, the story goes a little bit different that the last one. There’s my friend whom I won’t to say her name, and of course there’s her. My ex-crush, I say it like that because I want to be optimism that I didn’t have a crush on her anymore. But if I still dreamed about her, that it change everything. Maybe a little part of heart still have a feeling for her, but my conscience have declare that it is impossible that I can ever be with her. So, this dream is a bit weird and confusing. I mean I like her, but as a friend you know? I mean, not exactly as a friend. I want her to be someone special in my life I mean it’s not like that. But it’s like…what is it? You see my point here? I’m confused.
Well, let’s go back to the “dream” part. But before I sleep I swear I’m not thinking about her first, I just thinking about someone else but definitely not her. Obviously, you can’t tell your dream the whole story right? Because dream is hazy and delusional, we can tell the whole thing, just a view part that we remembered. Except in the movie “Inception”, you can make your dream whatever you want. Sweet!
First, part that I remembered is when she gave the book that written her name on the cover, that mean she gave her book that she wrote, right? That’s one. Second, I saw my friend “shalat” without “mukena”. That’s two. And the last I saw my ex-crush will go to my home seeing me cried before. Then, I wake up. What those mean? And why is she still popping in dream? Am I still have a crush on her? The answer may surprised you, to be continue…
“...must we dream our dreams and have them, too?” - Elizabeth Bishop, 'Questions of Travel'
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